I think about it a lot. I know I made the right choice for me. For my family. But I wish I had not been forced to make that decision. The situation could have been avoided and that makes me sad.
Unfortunately I cannot go into details about it here. It must remain private. But it bothers me. Almost five years later, it still bothers me and I often think about what might have been.
I had no other option at the time. I still believe that it was for the best and I made the right decision. But I feel sad. Wistful. Guilty.
I'm sorry.
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I only wish these electronic lines could carry the hug from me to you. As thanks fir what you said to me, and as comfort. Sometimes our only choices are difficult ones. And knowing we made the right one doesn't take the sting away. I hope you feel my thoughts with you today. They are what I can send.
ReplyDeleteI truly believe that we do what we can with what we can at the time. It might not be the best overall, but there's no way to know.
ReplyDeleteThose are such difficult moments.
Thank you both so much for your comments. It felt good just to get my thoughts out in a post, and now even better reading your comforting words.
ReplyDeleteIt's always the difficult decisions that linger long after we've made them, isn't it? And even though we move on (or try to), they always remain in the back of our mind, waiting for a quiet moment to reappear. I'm sorry for your sadness, Shannon.
ReplyDeleteYes, Stacia, it's those quiet moments or just a simple sign that triggers the memory and brings a little sadness. Thanks so much for your very kind words.
ReplyDeleteOh Shannon, I'm sorry. If you need to talk at all you know how to find me. And remember, things are always different in retrospect than they are in the new moment. Whatever it was I'm sure you did what you had to at the time.
ReplyDeleteYou're right, Christine. That moment was in a totally different (and difficult) time in my life. Things seem very different in retrospect, but I am in a better place now so it's hard to remember what it felt like back then. Thanks for helping me see it from another perspective.
ReplyDeleteShannon - I know how you feel. I had to cut someone out of my life recently and it has been very difficult for me. Remember, making the right decision is usually harder. The sadness will subside and things will fall into place eventually. For now, I can only offer you comfort by way of letting you know you're not alone, and hope that peace will find you soon.
ReplyDeleteThanks, Justine. Some days are tougher than others, but I do believe that I made the right decision. And sometimes doing the right thing means having to be strong. I was strong at the time and did what I had to. I just wish I didn't think about it quite so often. Thanks for your kinds words.
ReplyDeleteHow awful that something so heavy still brings sadness and regret 5 years later. Sending hugs and hoping your heart is a little lighter today.
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